Every once in awhile, I slow down enough in my mind that I have an AH HA moment. That happened yesterday.
I was visiting with a friend, discussing that whatever effort we put on things will prosper; both good and bad. I was thinking of both the Bible and the Law of Attraction.
Deuteronomy 28 quite simply states that you will be blessed by your obedience or cursed by your disobedience. So what ever you put your effort into, you will get the full reward of. If you choose to be obedient and follow the Lord’s commands, you will reap those rewards. If you choose to be disobedient and not follow the Lord’s commands, you will reap those rewards.
That really got me to thinking. What am I truly applying my efforts to? To be honest, it’s usually myself. I’m focused on Evelyn. And what Evelyn needs. What Evelyn wants. What Evelyn has grown tired of, etc. Are you with me here? Does it sound familiar? We as humans, easily slip into the zone of selfishness. Oh, we don’t think we are being selfish, but when our focus is only on ourselves, we can’t be of service to ANYONE. And I believe that is our one common calling. To serve our neighbors.
Who around us needs tending to? Who needs a hand with something? Who needs FOOD? Who needs some money to put fuel in their car to get them to the next pay day? Who has needs that we are not paying attention to? Who needs to just be heard? Or to feel loved? Who may need animal feed or hay? Y’all, it’s our job to see who needs our blessings.
When I have an little spark of wisdom like this, I start thinking of how this directly applies to me. What lesson do I need to learn from this?
As a little girl, I lived in a very harsh, negative world. But no one knew that. I had thought everyone knew that until I was an adult and realized that no one even knew anything about my life. My first thought to that reality was, good job Evelyn! Then it hurt a bit. I was very involved in church, school, sports… but no one knew me. They knew what I presented. I had learned that people liked happy, smiling little girls, so that’s what I presented.
I had a very difficult time in school and as a teen eventually quit going. I would lay in bed in the morning and was utterly amazed that not one person in my school cared where I was. Or that my mom didn’t care if I went to school, stayed home or even came home.
I lost my best friend about a year ago. Not to death, but to his own selfishness. A bunch of excuses as to why he couldn’t manage to text, call or ever want to get together. I was suddenly at that same sad place of amazement that no one cared about me. No one cared or even knew that I was laying in my bed, lost and amazed that not one person noticed my absence in life.
This seems dark and heavy, while it kinda is, stay with me.
Jump ahead to this morning. I went to church and the message was about Jacob and Esau and pretty much… YOU WILL ALWAYS REAP WHAT YOU SOW. Galatians 6:7
Wow! I immediately thought of yesterday’s spark of wisdom, which essentially is saying the same thing.
So I have to ask myself, what exactly am I sowing? NOTHING!!! I’m reaching NO ONE laying in my bedbeing miserable. I’m blessing NO ONE by being sad because a relationship has moved on. I’m serving NO ONE but myself and my pity.
To be honest, I sow plenty of hatefulness, bitterness, anger, resentment, jealousy, bad attitude… so guess what I will be growing and harvesting? Thankfully, I know I have sown love, compassion, generosity, kindness and I hope that those will help sweeten the harvest of the not so good stuff. But, realizing that I am right where I am in life right now is ALL based on what I have sown.
I hope that with some effort, I can remind myself that I’m constantly planting and looking ahead for a good harvest.
What would you like to harvest in your future? How can you sow those seeds every day to plant a good, abundant crop? Make a goal and write it down!
Meanwhile, instead of having a pity party for things being as they are, I will rejoice that a new crop can be planted and it’s all up to me to get those seeds sown!